 "Storm Billows Roll" © Fawn McNeill 2025 One of my instructors at FAU told me, "It's not about painting your feelings. What do you want to emote? Can you make others feel what you want them to feel, whether you felt it or not? For years I have been celebrating bright colors and joy in my paintings. After having done many pieces that were too serious or had backdrops of rain to symbolize tears, I decided I wanted to emote joy in this dark world full of sorrow. I started the palette knife angel series to break away from realism and bring thoughts of a better place. Then I created mixed media pieces to explore a more playful and fun expression. Plus, I wanted to break the rules and just create things without restrictions. My art has been my way to cope. It used to bring me peace of mind and healthy emotions as I worshipped God and relived beautiful memories through my art. I have felt so lost lately, so unable to find that peace of mind and joy. I still play my worship music, I still thank the Lord for the good things, and I still try to work through it, even if I am crying again. But I cannot paint happy wonderful works these days. I get frustrated, can't think straight, the colors aren't working, and the destructive attitude sets in. Then I paint gray over it or tear it up (if it's on paper). My answer to my instructor is "no." For now, I can't. I have decided that it might be best to paint storms, grays, and unfocused works. Maybe it will help if I get my feelings out and stop fighting the tears. Let them flow, be honest and accept this season for what it is: the hardest thing you can learn to live with, your child is no longer here. Click here to read more. ~ Original acrylic on stretched canvas ~ 8 x 10 inches ~ Not for sale Click here to see more More blog posts: Random Thoughts Click on an image to see related posts:
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